Orange @orange@jorts.horse

Also I'm autistic and have ADHD and am over-educated and hopelessly online.

Anyways. If anybody is curious why I keep ending up with lesbians with complex relationships with their genders, that's why.

I've had a few men want to own me. But I think one got spooked by the straight-presenting thing, and the others lived too far away.

I don't know.

I think it's fine. I'm happy.

I just never wrote this all out.

Cis and hetro don't fit. But neither does anything else.

But I haven't had an owner in more than a decade.

I've never been #collared, or been stuck in #chastity for more than a couple of weeks.

A couple of my exes will wear a slave tattoo I had them get for the rest of their lives. But I'll never have to explain a marking an ex had put on me.

It's weird, though.

I don't think I have a strong preference between the top and bottom. But as a masc switch who's happy taking the top role, I almost always end up owning a fem sub.

I have a handful of friends whose brains work like mine does. And they've each expressed interest in owning me. But it kind of always works out the other way around.

Like, I tend to think of myself as straight. But also I would 100% rather own or be owned by a man than not be in a relationship based on ownership.

And if I had an owner who wasn't happy with my gender presentation, I don't think changing it would cause any significant dysphoria?

I don't know. The #kink side just makes that other stuff seem... small to me.

Okay, so like, my gender and sexual orientation are both almost entirely irrelevant to me. But, like, #TPE is something I can't live without. It's just who I am.

Like, I guess "my type" is generally feminine. But also my type shifts very quickly to match whoever I happen to be with.

And, like, without interference my body is quite masculine. And since I don't care, that kinda makes me cis by default.

It just seems like fundamentally the wrong questions.

Ugh, I got some totally fucked up shit and I'm not on an instance that's for that.

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When you're more than friends, but also like soup.

Okay, so as far as I can tell, every trans-femme Mastodon instance is very concerned that every other trans-femme Mastodon instance is a dangerous sex cult.

And maybe some of them are. And maybe that's good.